What a day I started flylady.com wich helps you clean and organize your home wow it worked I will share what I have done and it's only 3:48 pm. I am taking my 15 minute break wich you take every 45 min. not too bad . anyways here it is my TA-DA list
COOK BREAKFAST,MAKE BED,SHOWER, BRUSH TEETH,SWISH TOILET,CLEAN SINK,WASH DISHES,WIPE COUNTERS,CLEAN OUT REFRIDGE,DUMP OLD OIL OUT,PUT DISHES UP,PICK UP LIVING ROOM,DUST LIV RM,WASH FRONT WINDOWS WASH FRONT DOOR WASH OUTSIDE OF WINDOWS AND DOORS,WASH VINYL AROUND WINDOWS AND DOOR INSIDE & OUTBRUSH COBWEBS FROM AROUND FRONT DOOR,CLEAN TOP OF FRIDGE OFF,WIPE TABLE AND CHAIRS IN KITCHEN,DUST FIREPLACE,DUST CLOCK IN LIV RM SWEEP KITCHEN,MOP KITCHEN,DUST DINING ROOM,VACUUM DINING ROOM,DUMP DEAD MOUSE, VACUUM LIVING ROOM,SWEEP AND MOP ENTRY,VACUUM WALK THROUGH ROOM,DUST WALK THROUGH ROOM,PICK UP FISHING STUFF OUT OF YARD AND PUT UP,PICK UP TRASH OUT OF YARD,GET COVERALLS OUT OF YARD AND WASH, PUT BIKE UP,PUT LADDER UP,GIVE DESTINI HER MAIL THAT CAME, HANG ALL COATS UP IN ARMOUR,VACUUM HALL,VACUUM MASTER BEDROOM,MAKE TEA WASH PILLOWS.
Lets see what else I can get into.... I feel so muc better I am not as depressed.....
Monday, October 26, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
oct 24 2009 cont.
I dont know where this came from but I wrote it in a forum on Flylady.com and wanted to share with you what I wrote I poured my heart out.
Hi there , I pray that this is gonna get me out of a rut. I am being a stay at home wife(no kids) for the first time ever and I am about to turn 35 this month and have worked every since I was 13(working in tobacco) This is really hard. All this time working I have imagined all the things I could do from, arts & crafts keeping a clean house having supper cooked and so on and all I have been doing his the bare essentials . cook,wash dishes, laundy and keeping things picked up, oh yeah and I make our bed everyday for the first time in my life. I need more though, Inbetween the times of doing those things I am depressed what is my purpose in life. Why can't I be that woman I have imagined. To be totally honest I have never completed anything. High school , got my GED I have had more jobs than I can count the longest I ever stayed at 1 employer was 3 years and that was with Lowes home improvement. The second longest was a 911 dispatcher and I have started 3 businesses and I got bored with them, or it got too stressful or I got tired. I have went to college for cosmetology, nail tech, graphic design, tried to get my associates degree for criminal justice, Did I complete any listed , NO. Grrr. I hate that about me. I even can't finish being pregnant. I have had 3 miscarriages the longest I carried was 5 months that was the worst experience of my life. I even went to therapy for all these things and guess what I didn't finish it either I went long enough for them to tell me that I have ADD , YOU THINK!!!!!!! They put me on Ritalin and at first I thought I was doing better, but know I just the creatively but still do nothing with it. I am iller and don't want to talk to anyone person to person. why did I just tell you guys that? I'm sorry to lay that on you but I guess it easier to tell it to strangers than to those you know thank you for your time and guess what I shined my sink and washed the dishes(OVERACHIEVER) he he.
Hi there , I pray that this is gonna get me out of a rut. I am being a stay at home wife(no kids) for the first time ever and I am about to turn 35 this month and have worked every since I was 13(working in tobacco) This is really hard. All this time working I have imagined all the things I could do from, arts & crafts keeping a clean house having supper cooked and so on and all I have been doing his the bare essentials . cook,wash dishes, laundy and keeping things picked up, oh yeah and I make our bed everyday for the first time in my life. I need more though, Inbetween the times of doing those things I am depressed what is my purpose in life. Why can't I be that woman I have imagined. To be totally honest I have never completed anything. High school , got my GED I have had more jobs than I can count the longest I ever stayed at 1 employer was 3 years and that was with Lowes home improvement. The second longest was a 911 dispatcher and I have started 3 businesses and I got bored with them, or it got too stressful or I got tired. I have went to college for cosmetology, nail tech, graphic design, tried to get my associates degree for criminal justice, Did I complete any listed , NO. Grrr. I hate that about me. I even can't finish being pregnant. I have had 3 miscarriages the longest I carried was 5 months that was the worst experience of my life. I even went to therapy for all these things and guess what I didn't finish it either I went long enough for them to tell me that I have ADD , YOU THINK!!!!!!! They put me on Ritalin and at first I thought I was doing better, but know I just the creatively but still do nothing with it. I am iller and don't want to talk to anyone person to person. why did I just tell you guys that? I'm sorry to lay that on you but I guess it easier to tell it to strangers than to those you know thank you for your time and guess what I shined my sink and washed the dishes(OVERACHIEVER) he he.
Saturday October 24 2009
Haven't done much of anything today, went to the grocery store and cooked a late breakfast. My husband and myself went to Surf City Pier in Topsail Beach NC. We got there around 7pm and left at 11pm .... we caught absolutely nothing. It cost $ 50 in bait plus the fee too fish off the pier. It was a waste , but I wanted to do what he wanted to do.
I don't know whats wrong wit me, I am getting a little depressed. I love being at home because of the freedom, but also can't get motivated. I just do the daily things that need to be done. Cooking, dishes, laundry, keeping things picked up and so on. There are so many things that need to be done like cleaning out the attic, going through all the things from the store, which is taking up 2 rooms at this point. I need to be putting the things on ebay, gosh so many things I need to do.
I am going to be 35 at the end of this month, and I do not know what I want to be when I grow up. I have worked customer service, been a 911 operator, owned 3 businesses that all failed , well I gave up. Grrrr why can't I stick to anything. It makes me crazy. Am I just lazy or what..
I don't know whats wrong wit me, I am getting a little depressed. I love being at home because of the freedom, but also can't get motivated. I just do the daily things that need to be done. Cooking, dishes, laundry, keeping things picked up and so on. There are so many things that need to be done like cleaning out the attic, going through all the things from the store, which is taking up 2 rooms at this point. I need to be putting the things on ebay, gosh so many things I need to do.
I am going to be 35 at the end of this month, and I do not know what I want to be when I grow up. I have worked customer service, been a 911 operator, owned 3 businesses that all failed , well I gave up. Grrrr why can't I stick to anything. It makes me crazy. Am I just lazy or what..
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Thursday October 22 2009
Wow well let's start by saying that I started working out Monday and eating less and drinking more water and I have lost 4 pounds.... Holla , go me.
While you getting to know me I need to tell you something , the reason I am gonna tell you is, so you will know why I jump from one thing to another and may miss a day , and there ain't no telling what else. I was Diagnosed with ADD at the age of 30 , I am now 34 , gonna be 35 this month. And that along with 3 miscarriages has had a toll on me emotionally and physically. I have always been a lil' irresponsible and never stuck to anything , but has gotten worst. I went through shopping thearapy ( trying to fill the void of no children with things). Left a county job with great pay and benefits , to start a business during this great thing we call a recession. Left there to go to work at Lowes for a week only to quit there and stay at home. Okay all that has happened since March of this year. Grrrrr. I always imagined all the things I would do if I ever stayed home how nice my house would look at all times and how I would do crafty things and cook all the time... Where did all those things go. I do cook breakfast and supper , make the bed everyday, wash clothes and make sure the kitchen and living room is presentable most of the time but it takes me all day just to do those things. What is wrong with me. I have this image of what I want to be but I just can't get to that point. I aggrevates me so bad, I am tired of writing now. I'll talk to you next time..
While you getting to know me I need to tell you something , the reason I am gonna tell you is, so you will know why I jump from one thing to another and may miss a day , and there ain't no telling what else. I was Diagnosed with ADD at the age of 30 , I am now 34 , gonna be 35 this month. And that along with 3 miscarriages has had a toll on me emotionally and physically. I have always been a lil' irresponsible and never stuck to anything , but has gotten worst. I went through shopping thearapy ( trying to fill the void of no children with things). Left a county job with great pay and benefits , to start a business during this great thing we call a recession. Left there to go to work at Lowes for a week only to quit there and stay at home. Okay all that has happened since March of this year. Grrrrr. I always imagined all the things I would do if I ever stayed home how nice my house would look at all times and how I would do crafty things and cook all the time... Where did all those things go. I do cook breakfast and supper , make the bed everyday, wash clothes and make sure the kitchen and living room is presentable most of the time but it takes me all day just to do those things. What is wrong with me. I have this image of what I want to be but I just can't get to that point. I aggrevates me so bad, I am tired of writing now. I'll talk to you next time..
Monday, October 19, 2009
Monday October 19 2009
Well it's Monday again , but unlike others, I don't mind. See I have worked every since I was 13 ,working in tobacco for my grandaddy and to my latest owning an antique shop.
The antique shop didn't do well money wise and it became a real strain on my marriage. I was at the store from 8-6 and by the time I got home I was so tired. Didn't feel like cleaning, cooking or being intimate.
I have always wanted to be a stay at home MOM but God has had other plans. We have had 3 miscarriages since we were married in 2005 the second hurt the worst. I was 5 months pregnant and I started dilating and then my water broke. We were divested, that was the worst feeling that I have ever had. We have moved on since then.
I have never been one to complete anything, I always give up, but since then I have gotten worst. I tried everything to fill the void from shopping to starting my own business. I have made so many mistakes since that January in 2008. I have quit a county job with good pay and benefits and went and started a consignment bussiness with just $1800.00 and then I thought that was not what I wanted so I went to antiques, wich I really loved and still do but, it wasn't worth all the stress of the store and the stress at home. So guess what failed at that too.
Now my husband and I thought we would try me staying at home for a while, I like it alot , I love waking up and having my husbands breakfast cooked and having dinner ready when he gets home. He no longer has to dig through the basket of clean socks to try and find a match. He just opens his top drawer and there they are.
I do get lonely and I miss the store alot. I have always been outgoing , but as the days go by , I am like a hermit. I just want to be left alone alot of days. Blah Blah... I know let me move on.
So I weighed this morning and guess what 197 yes 197 I was a size 10 when I was married, now a beautiful size 18. Grrr. Anyways I ordered Latino Cardio by Dancing With The Stars via Netflix I might as well start trying to loose wieght with you. Nothing to eat so far been up sonce 6 am , cooked my husband something but I didn't eat. I am drinking a cup of coffee now that is healthy right. anyways. I am gonna go until tomorrow and with my ADD there is no telling what I will talk about or what order it will be told, or if will even make since until then....
The antique shop didn't do well money wise and it became a real strain on my marriage. I was at the store from 8-6 and by the time I got home I was so tired. Didn't feel like cleaning, cooking or being intimate.
I have always wanted to be a stay at home MOM but God has had other plans. We have had 3 miscarriages since we were married in 2005 the second hurt the worst. I was 5 months pregnant and I started dilating and then my water broke. We were divested, that was the worst feeling that I have ever had. We have moved on since then.
I have never been one to complete anything, I always give up, but since then I have gotten worst. I tried everything to fill the void from shopping to starting my own business. I have made so many mistakes since that January in 2008. I have quit a county job with good pay and benefits and went and started a consignment bussiness with just $1800.00 and then I thought that was not what I wanted so I went to antiques, wich I really loved and still do but, it wasn't worth all the stress of the store and the stress at home. So guess what failed at that too.
Now my husband and I thought we would try me staying at home for a while, I like it alot , I love waking up and having my husbands breakfast cooked and having dinner ready when he gets home. He no longer has to dig through the basket of clean socks to try and find a match. He just opens his top drawer and there they are.
I do get lonely and I miss the store alot. I have always been outgoing , but as the days go by , I am like a hermit. I just want to be left alone alot of days. Blah Blah... I know let me move on.
So I weighed this morning and guess what 197 yes 197 I was a size 10 when I was married, now a beautiful size 18. Grrr. Anyways I ordered Latino Cardio by Dancing With The Stars via Netflix I might as well start trying to loose wieght with you. Nothing to eat so far been up sonce 6 am , cooked my husband something but I didn't eat. I am drinking a cup of coffee now that is healthy right. anyways. I am gonna go until tomorrow and with my ADD there is no telling what I will talk about or what order it will be told, or if will even make since until then....
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